What if i...

Hmmm...today...it has been a very tiring day as i havejust reached the city of entertainment..it took me 8 hours to drive up and downthe peninsular...just to meet some of the people i know...i once knew...and nowknowing...=)...yeah...as i am sittin down here in my hotel room i begin towonder what would i be if i did not forget her*....how would my life benow?....would i be still...sittin down in the dark...mourning about themistakes i have done?...or blaming myself for the mistakes which made herdecide after 6 painful months of waiting...that i was not the one meant for her......hmmmm...yeah...wouldi have chosen the path which was socially prescribed as immoral..and play withinnocent heart’s feelings?.....what would i be now?...would i have gotten thesame results for my high school certificate? would i have gone to a town knownfor its peacefulness just to meet the seraph which i assumed that is the rightchoice for me...hmm..would i be in the same higher institution?.or even worse.Would i be doing the same course im doing now?.....what would i be now?...iwould never know....how would life be...if i had not made the decision toforget her*?....hmmm... but in a way i must be contented with what i have done...because...whatever happens happenedfor a reason...because if i had not forgotten her *, i wouldn’t have made a lotof new friends...=p...yeah take it in a positive way...and of all the friends iwouldn’t have met the person that i have met in a gathering...thememories....with that particular person was...different...y?..hmm...i just foundher character different..it was like a person letting u to do anything else aslong s ur sincere her...in the beginning as all the relationshipstory...goes...both of us had the same enthusiasm..the person had evenintroduced her mum to me ...and even told her mum that im her special one...but...yeah...iwas sincere at first...we were very much alike and we thought everything in asame manner...but towards the end there wasn’t the chemistry anymore...idecided to end and move away.. Butyet again what if i didn’t end the relationship?...whatwould i be now?....would i be going trough misery i have never expectedto gothrough?....hmm...would i get hurt and become more volatile as neverbefore?...hmmm...would she go for other fellaz....thinkin that theywere theone at the end to find out that they weren’t...hmmm..would she havegoneagainst my say that the guy she is nowindulging in a relationship is not a guy who is meant for her??...andat lastfinding out in a very harsh way..that he is not the one forher??...would wehave become best friends now??....hmmm..Then moving on my life i took abreak...stop..all my immoral actions and focus on other things inlife...afterher...then..came a day as i was browsin through the net..i came acrossa cherubwhich i thought waz different than anything before...but i (knowingme=p)...didn’treally took it serious...and...just..maintained a normal pace withher...butone day a message came from the cherub ...what if i had lost myphone?...orchanged my number?...or even ignored the message?...would i be who i amnow?...hmmm...i wonder...but yeah...once again wadever happens happenedfor areason...the cherub thought me a lot..i mean a lot...shaping me into adifferent person than i used to be teaching me what is the real meaningoflife...what is the consequences if a person’s ego is too thick..not toforget..thehappiness...and haha..not forgetting the pain and sorrow too=p...yeah..but..anyhow. she apologised 4 whateva happened as she don’twannahold grudges or hate or hurt ny1 and she felt no point haing as shedidn’t feelright coz all that would accumulate sins and unnecessary karma..shedecided she wanted to live her life widot anygrudges n ill emotions....i should thank her..maybe because the god inher havemade her decide what is right for her..at least now she have..made herstandand made things right..and clear where i think she is contented withthe guywho she is with now.....the feelings is still there deep down myheart...but..fate..is not there to c us together...but yet again wedecide ourfate... In the future..fate would make me find a soul which was reallymeantfor me...maybe she is near me but I’m not realising it...maybe i knowher...ormaybe i don’t.....or maybe she is far away from me and I’ll meet her when the time comes...therefore ill leave it to the fate to decide when i wouldc the rightperson...to fall in love with and cherish the person foreternity....hmm...letsc....it’s already 10 am....it’s time for me to go and enjoy in thetheme park...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...hehex...anyhow..I’m contented with what i have gone through and what i am now...=).
-Adapted from a life story of an anonymous soul-
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